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Aug. 23rd, 2012 02:45 amCertain baggage of mine started out when I was a child. Know what else started out when I was a child? Learning English. Childhood baggage isn't "baggage" until that person learns enough to realise it is baggage; in the meantime, it's just as normal as wearing clothes outside. I wear clothes outside, I speak English, I don't ask for what I want. I know how to walk, I know how to use utensils, I know how to treat my body terribly because I don't really live here.
If I moved somewhere and spoke a different language, I would probably always speak with an accent, because I learned the language relatively late in life. Same with baggage: I'll get through most of it, but I'll always have a twitch in certain places.
That's mostly what I mean. Childhood baggage basically was what normal was, until I learned enough to realise that what had happened wasn't okay. Some things I didn't fully realise until I was in my late 20s, even. Because I learned that shit alongside learning how to read, and one was bad and one was good, but how the hell could I have known the difference?
If I moved somewhere and spoke a different language, I would probably always speak with an accent, because I learned the language relatively late in life. Same with baggage: I'll get through most of it, but I'll always have a twitch in certain places.
That's mostly what I mean. Childhood baggage basically was what normal was, until I learned enough to realise that what had happened wasn't okay. Some things I didn't fully realise until I was in my late 20s, even. Because I learned that shit alongside learning how to read, and one was bad and one was good, but how the hell could I have known the difference?
