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Today's sauce d'awes:

- I got to wake up next to Josh.  Downside == the alarm.
- It was lovely out this morning, all fresh and promisy.
- I logged into my bank1 account and sussed out a very rough budget for the month.
- I emailed a recruiter with my preferred jobly types.
- I didn't spend more time with Josh this evening - partly tired, partly he had other things he wanted to do, partly I don't want to make it easy to get sucked into squee forever.
- Hee, I got to do an Infocom thing with [livejournal.com profile] rosefox.
- Pie sat on my bed.  *amused*

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Date: 2008-06-14 03:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pnkrokhockeymom.livejournal.com
You know what? I don't like waking up with someone. There's some sort of trigger there, some barrier I'm not ready to have come down, and I get all anxious, but so much so that it's already, instead of anxious, "distant" and "cautious" and "touchy."

But I like it when someone stays. I don't mind that. I like to sleep with someone. But I like it the best, or, at least, there aren't terrible triggers, if they, you know, get up and go before I get out of bed or even, well, look at them.

I feel vulnerable and defensive to have someone there when I first wake up.

Hmmm.

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Date: 2008-06-14 05:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] the-xtina.livejournal.com
Whereas I don't like it when I wake up and they're not there (if they've spent the night, I mean), because my anx defenses are low, so I wake up to "Did I say something wrong?" times a million.

I am oddly amused by this!

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Date: 2008-06-14 05:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pnkrokhockeymom.livejournal.com
It's sooo interesting.

I think it's because there's no vestiges of my "shiny bauble" me on in the a.m., and that's what part of me thinks everyone is there for...
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